this weekend.

I have been pretty busy this weekend. Sunday was very nice. I am going to take Monday off though. Everyone will be out of town....so no meetings. That is what a normal Monday is: meetings.

but its been interesting this weekend. God is just amazing. Like really...that is all I can even say. He even gave me a verse to that He is: Jeremiah 10:6 LORD, there is no one like you! For you are great, and your name is full of power.

Saturday, to my old self, could of seemed like such a crappy day. Things going wrong and just being very tired. But No!
Praise the Lord, Oh my soul.
At night....I had 10 mins to wait for the tram and it was freezing outside. So I just decided to walk down to the next tram stop for something to do. As I am walking....it turns into skipping, which then lead to singing joyfully to the Lord. I could not help it. It was amazing. God is so good.

He really is. I have to say that. But that will not cut it.

Oh. How he Loves me! Oh....how he loves me....how he loves me so!

He is growing me. Making me how he wants me. I got a blessing today to be with some South Africans. God used them alot in my life today. More than they know.

A sad venting time....

This blog is about what God is showing me.

...but recently my heart was broken, along with God's heart. I found out something that was said to one of my friends:

"Billy(replaced name). We all know that God has his chosen people. Obviously, you are not one of them."

...

Where in the world do you get that authority to use words like that!? Words are only used to build up. To encourage. To love.

Those words are life killing. Those words kill all hope. All meaning of life for my friend (I do not know if it did, but it had the power to).

That is NOT God. That is NOT God. That is NOT God.
Yes. I am bothered by this. I do not hold this against the person who said it, but my heart is broken. My eyes filled with tears for my friend.

God is Hope. God is Love. God is the Shepherd who leaves his 99 sheep and goes searching for his one lost one.

Two years.

I was thinking today about the Gospel.

Out of all the things that happened and all the places I have gone, if all I have gained was a little bit more understanding of the Cross. It would have been worth every single bit of it.

It is so amazing.


P.S. Do not think I take forgranted what God has been doing in my life and the places I have gone. At the moment, He is revealing to me more about the Cross and His wonderful love.

There is no doubt you love me Jesus. and that you will take care of me.

your really great.

My weekend.

I started to write this blog....and I noticed there is something I do not know how to do.

I am wanting to write about what I am learning with God. When I start writing it though, I use "Him & He" and so on....it feels really weird. How do I say this?

By grace....I am washed clean. Loved for who I am. I am small compared to Him and His Love for me. But as I write this, "He" is here. My One, my lover, my friend, my Transcendent God.

I am learning to walk with Him....continuously in my prayers, all day....trying to do all things out of Love for him, constantly in His presence. So that is the problem. I write about what I am learning about God. In this perspective as if He is not sitting right beside me, talking with me, loving on me, enjoying me, washing me head to toe in His grace.

He is showing me all of these things. I am tempted to change my blog to "Our Adventures," not just mine. I am doing this with Him, now, being loved and deeply rooted in my soul with joy because of Him.

This is where me, Jesus, Holy Spirit, and the Father are at. He is showing me lots of things, and I am trying to learn and take it in. He is patient....I am in a rush and stubborn. He is gentle, and I am prideful and competitive. He shows me humility and I roll my eyes. He shows me His creation and I ignore it because I am to busy. He shows me something He finds wonderful and I don't even notice it.

How I can't wait to go deeper with you God. To know your secrets. To see your beauty and not to rush through things. I need your help God, I can not do this on my own. I need your grace to strengthen me and push me forward. I am willing and surrendered to you. Thank you for this crazy love.

Oh what Love!!!

How Wonderful is He!

How can I contain this love!

This Beauty! Its so amazing. He is so so so so (sooooooooooooooo) great.

Hey!

I said in my email that I would keep this for more personal stuff. I am going to try and keep it more about what I am learning. Sweet.

I am really not in the mood to do this, so it prob. is not going to flow as much as it could...if at all.

GRACE. How amazing? How beautiful? I don't need to have fear. I am loved for who I am....not what I do. Its amazing. God will always love me for who I am not matter what. I make mistakes....I do bad things....Im self centered lots of times.....most of the time. But. God loves me. For that....I can love other people and show them grace to. That is pretty amazing. Its a life changing grace. Its really a life changing grace....so much. It does not make sense.

Communication between me and Robert. Sometimes its hard because of culture differences and english is his second language. So I am learning a lot about that. Its like I am practically married. Ha.

Just going for it. Go for it. It doesn't matter. If it doesn't work....oh well. Thats okay. Go for it. Go BIG. Do something crazy and fun.

Hope? Our generation has lost that. Hope in Heaven. Hope in His return. I love it. I really want to hope for heaven.

Wonder. I want it. Wonder for the Creation of God. To see the small things.

Beauty. To be suprised by it. I love that to.

Being filled with his Joy. Putting a smile on my face and laughter in my mouth and heart. To be happy.

That Christ is in my eyes. To love. Oh this love. How beautiful. How full. The love that makes me dance. Yes...I am starting to get interested in dancing. Hip hopish I guess. Its fun. Specially in worship. Very suddle. He makes my heart dance and smile : )

I dont need to look to people. Only God. Its freeing. Easier said than done.

Thats it for now. Oh. Memorzing scripture. Its amazing. Its my way of worship and Bible study. I almost have Ephesians memorized, and then I want phillipians.

This is long. Bye bye!

In Him

Jeremy