Blog Post #1,000,000

Not really....it will be actually number 37.

Should I talk about what is happening here with what I do or with what God is doing in me?

I will give you a cool testimony: I tell you this story in humility, transparency, and wanting to encourage you. I was completely broken and at the end of the rope. It has nothing to do with my family, with my friends, or with my work here. It is God doing some hard work in me. Really taking me through a refining process, and it HURTS. You may not understand it, but when God's Spirit is in you, he starts to get rid of the bad stuff. "Whatever is in the darkness will be exposed by the light" (Not verbatim).

So...back to the story...I was walking home from a friends house after picking up a movie to watch for later. On my way home, I was asking God, " What is happening in my life? I don't understand, it hurts!" To be honesty, I was crying and in tears, at the end of my rope. Some of my friends passed by me, on the way to go get a movie for themselves. They picked on me a little bit, and I didn't answer them. I just kept walking, I didn't have the capability to talk. I walk home and just stop and cry...."God, what is happening?!" I get back to my room and open the door. On my bed is a note, it says: Trust me.

This is not the first time this has happened. Many times lately, I have cried out to God, "what is happening?!?!" He has been very faithful to me. Telling me in many ways to trust him. Whether with his own voice, or a note, or a scripture from a friend who doesn't know anything. God is faithful. Hands down.

I am still learning as I go through this, but this is God. God whom I serve, love, and desire. He is the God, who created everything, but still has all the time in the world to spend on me. Telling me his secrets and working in my heart. Refining me. He is more of a reality then anything else I know.

Psalm 27:4 "The one thing that I ask of from the Lord, and that I shall seek: Is to be in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. Beholding the beauty of the Lord, and meditating in His temple."
Psalm 25:14 "The Secrets of the Lord are for those who fear Him, and he will make them know his covenant"

These verses are beautiful. On the second verse....replace fear with love...its the same thing.

Have a blessed day

Ps....this note is to encourage you. I am not a depressed person, this is my life with a faithful God, taking me through a season of taking the bad things out, and making me his.