I believe

in transparency and humility.
1) Its a testimony of what God is doing in your life.
-Which can encourage/teach others
2) It keeps the devil from having a foothold in your life.

I want to be honest and humble, but first a cool thought:

Have you ever wondered what a butterfly thinks? It goes from being this slow and fat insect to a breath taking beauty. What does it think when its just slowing losing all of its weight and growing beautiful wings? When it turns into a butterfly, does it have this past memory of what it used to be? What it was like? Did it ever get jealous of other butterflies or did it even know?

Just a random thought

Anywho, humility.

People wonder why I am home. Well I will tell you my testimony of how I got here.

I decided I was coming home to support my mom in her recent relational endeavors (good choice of words I would say). That is bottom line, but the thing that arose and caused constant stress in me is "What am I going to do afterwords?"
I was offered to stay in Skien, Norway for two more years as a Discipleship Training School staff. I would invest into people coming to do a DTS (what I did in Australia). My job in particular would be to make sure they get a heart for long term missions and a heart for evangelism. I would have been the "evangelist" on the team. But we will leave it as this....thats a very general description and it was actually a very exciting interest to me.
So I was torn between doing this, or coming home and following a peace God had given me in Berlin about finding out what I would do later. This peace, as described by Philippians 4:8, is a peace that can not be understood by men. An overwhelming peace. I loved that peace. Both seemed like very very good options, but one seemed a little silly. The silly one being going home and following this peace and now knowing what was going to happen. So this actually caused me TONS of stress. It was horrible and I made it much bigger than what it actually was. At one point my friend was telling me his hands were warm (Holy Spirit in his hands), and I had knots in my back. So he put his hand on my back and in the name of Jesus, he made the knots go away. I felt them, and he felt them ago away at that exact same moment (just a cool story). The devil is stupid.
I asked God to confirm with a small money donation if I was suppose to stay in Skien...and it never happened.
As I was sitting in my room one morning reading, I asked God to give me a verse about peace if he wanted me to follow this peace since he didn't confirm anything with money. I read and read and did not find anything about peace. I go out that day with Christian and do some evangelism. When I got back home, on my door was a note with a verse. John 14:27. A verse all about peace. So that was really cool. So Gods peace came flooding back into me that day. I was in the kitchen doing dishes and God showed up in the kitchen. I just stood there and cried because it was just so overwhelming to feel his peace and love. I enjoyed it so much.
So...if your still with me....I went to church retreat with a local church only knowing a couple of the people. Here is where I made the decision to just go home and follow this peace and something in me made me think I need to work things out with my family when I get home...whatever that might be. As I decide this, a man walked up to me and says "God wants you to go home and work things out with your family and then he will give you clear direction." Talk about confirmation. Then another man walks up to me, and God has been showing me tons about peace during this month and so on, and says to me "God has been showing you a lot about His peace, He plans on showing you and taking you even deeper into that." So that was way cool.

When I left, I really had a feeling for "two months" that I would be home and then I would leave again. I really am praying that this is true...but my timing is not always God's timing...I just hope it is God.

So here I am at home. Not knowing what I am doing. But thats okay, because when God tells you something, he will hold on to his word. I am in the right place, for sure. This is where I could use your prayers: for direction and for friends to have here while I am home that I can stay accountable to. I dont really know what I am suppose to do with my time, I guess God will show me. I dont want this to be a time of being lazy or irresponsible, that is not my heart at all. Oh, you can pray what I am suppose to do about a car as well. That would be great! :D

I guess that's about it. I usually like to make things short, but no cutting corners (although I probably did leave out some details, actually I just reread this, and I did, but you got the important stuff).

Have a blessed day!

hey

what a Life....

any life with God is amazing.

"Youth without God is like a painting in a world with no light"

God has been teaching me lots of things lately.

Lots about peace.

Everyone knows Psalm 23. I have never really payed much attention to it, but God has been using it in my life alot.

I have been learning lots about peace. lots and lots. Someone who didn't know me came up to me the other day....a stranger, who is a christian, said "God has been giving you and showing you lots of peace this week, He plans on showing you more and taking you deeper into that." Thats really cool.

Not to much going on this week, everybody is leaving going somewhere. I just got back from a church retreat from a church in town. 1 baptized, 2 saved, and people healed. What a time.

I love being a Jesus follower. Its to the glory of His grace in how much he has changed me. Its so obvious to me how much I have changed because of Christ.

Bye : )